Family time

I'm feeling oddly raw and vulnerable this night. It feels almost as if my heart is aching.

There is no explanation for these feelings. Nothing out of the ordinary has occurred.

I've been a nanny the last few days for a lovely couple. It hasn't been the easiest job I've ever had, and my eyes have definitely been opened to the adventures of parenting that await me. I am no longer in quite a rush, although it is something that my heart desires.

I feel like my heart breaks for family.

I've been reading quotes and blogs about family life---and there is so much heart ache and let-down involved.

I'm an observer, and I've seen the way America does family, and I'm not convinced we have it right.

The documentary "Babies" I also found to be quite fascinating.

I am having difficulty pin-pointing my feelings, but I am simply irritated with our failure at family. So many of us kids grew up in lives of privilege, that we are almost ruined for anything else. Our attempts to make life "easier" has resulted in us making life more complicated.

I have a desire to simplify my life. From my observations, families that live more simple lives seem to have more healthy family dynamics-- generally speaking that is. I just have this strong desire to see families succeed because family to me is one of the most important things in this world.

I'm looking for strategy. I'm seeking wisdom. I'm yearning for truth.

God, I just thank you for the precious gift of family. Lord, I ask that you restore what has been broken, and heal what has been hurt. Father, that you would show us how to succeed in the area of family. That we would see family dynamics be strong, loving, and powerful.

God forgive us for where we have fallen short. Thank you that we are not disqualified, and still have an incredible destiny ahead.