Preparing the heart

I haven't talked to the church guy since that night I was humbled. Seems silly, but I question my own intentions.

I used to believe that I didn't want to get married, and that I would be perfectly happy being single for the rest of my life. That was back when I wasn't always honest with myself.

God made us to be relational beings. I desire the intimacy that comes with being in a covenant relationship with another human being. I believe that God knows the desires of my heart and He wants the best for me. I believe He wants to reveal His glory in successful, sustainable, and satisfying marriages.

In this time of my life, I think God is showing me that I need to get my satisfaction from Him. There is no man on this planet that can fulfill me---that can give me everything I need--and vice versa---I can never completely satisfy a man. It has to be God. God has to be what we are full of. God has to be the one in whom I trust. If I trust God, I can be prepared to expect the unexpected. When things go wrong in a  relationship and people don't always do what you want them to, it's easy to put your trust in your expectation of them instead of putting your trust in God. Putting your trust in your expectations of what you think they should do is a set-up for getting hurt. People will not always meet your expectations, and how we respond to that is key. Are we disappointed, frustrated, mad, ect? Or do we trust that God has a plan and even if others aren't doing what we think they should be--we know that God love us and will take care of us even when know one else will.

I learned this last year when I got attached to this guy I really liked. I expected this guy to act a certain way, and when he didn't, I got hurt---because I trusted in my expectations of him instead of God.

Why I am bring this up today? I'm not really sure. I just am trusting God that He has a plan for my life and that he will provide a compatible life companion for me. No longer do I want to strive or worry about finding "the one"--but I want to trust that God will take care of me and provide a husband for me. Thank you God for your faithfulness and love. You are so great God. Lord, I pray that you will prepare his heart whoever he may be, and God, that you would also prepare my heart. Amen