Ready, set, GO!

I feel strong, confident, equipped, and prepared. I feel as if the Lord has been strengthening me in multiple areas of my life, and although at times I've felt all but broken, I feel as if he is building me back up. My foundation has been solidified so that I can accommodate growth and expansion.  I feel as if my heart knows I ready more than my head. I find myself surprised at how "grown-up" I am now. It's weird, I honestly do feel different now that I am 21. I feel as if I'm stepping into something greater--a greater privilege and responsibility. Its amazing to see how much I've grown when I look back and realize I am no longer an insecure high schooler trying to be cool and "accepted". Knowing your identity gives you solidity, confidence, hope, excitement.

I feel as if this past year has been a crash Kingdom course. It's been quite a journey following the Spirit and going through times of wrestling with God. I think I have a new understanding of Him that I never had before. He has taken me to deeper levels of intimacy and it's incredible to look back and see the growth. I feel as if there is a deeper level of trust between God and I. Trust is built from truth exchanged. I have been honest and vulnerable with God--yes, he already knows everything about me, but being able to no longer try and hide things from Him allows Him to enter in. In exchange I feel as if He has revealed more of His nature to me--thus truth has been exchanged and mutual trust is built.Yes, He trusts me and my heart and I no longer have to question if following my heart is the "right" thing to do--He's given me permission to chase after my heart's desires. It's truly an oddity to feel connected to the Creator the Universe, but that is the essence of His nature--He made us relational. 

It's kind of exciting because I feel a freedom to be myself and stop trying to fix everything wrong with me--It's a time to embrace the fullness of who He is and who He has made me to be. I don't want to be caught up in the details--they will come--I will grow--I will be sharpened--I am teachable---but it's OKAY to make mistakes! haha. Knowing that it is okay to mess up, gives me the freedom to step out and RISK. That is what I love about adventure...there is always risk involved.

I really want to step into this new season and live vulnerably so that I can love well. I don't want to let fear keep me from the fullness. I am excited to see where Holy Spirit takes me in this next season. I love putting my Trust in Him...He is ALWAYS faithful.

So I hear I am Papa, let me be a vessel of your faithfulness and love. Thanks for being such a great Dad!! I'm ready to chase after Your heart!