Anticipation

Here I am. I can feel transition peeking over the edge waiting to fall full force into my lap.

It is an exciting, yet excruciating time. Anxiety is an enemy of mine.

I know it's going to be an incredible adventure, but my heart is hesitant. It's so accustom to hiding inside the barrier I've built that it is unsure how to respond to the rays of light shine through the cracks. Yes, the barrier is slowly being broken down, and my heart is craving to leap in the sunlight, but its always been told to wait a little longer...and waiting still it must.

Stepping into dreams is a wild reality.  There is still so much I don't understand and that I don't have resolved but I'm learning to let go and let God. I know He's leading me every step of the way and my heart delights in the journey. Listening to my heart I can tell that it is in the right place and it is going in the right direction.

Part of me still feels unprepared for what awaits. I know that God will give me the grace for what He has called me to, but it can be overwhelming looking at tomorrow's challenge with only today's grace.

The acceleration is exhilarating but definitely uncomfortable! Here I am zooming full speed ahead and I hardly have time to catch my breath! I know this is right, so there is no reason to stop--but there is definitely a momentum that is carrying me and everything in me hopes that what I've learned has properly prepared me for what I am stepping into---because I don't want to sink! haha.

I know I'm ready. I know I'm ready. This is what I've been dreaming of---and here I am taking my first steps towards my dreams!


Thanks Jesus that your grace is enough! You are sooooo faithful!