Insanity or spontaneity ?

Yesterday I was invited to go to Mammoth-- and we're leaving tomorrow.

I love that I have the freedom to spontaneously go on a trip to Mammoth----however I have this question in my mind that keeps arising---It sounds a bit like my mom's voice.

Is it wise to go?

This question particularly is looking at my financial situation. I have no steady income. Trips cost money.

Do I have the money to go? Yes.

Do I want to keep draining my savings account? Not particularly.

I have been extraordinarily provided for financially throughout my life---and throughout my seasons of unemployment. God has ALWAYS provided the means for me---the job, the income, the provisions---whatever it may be---so questioning God's provision feels wrong. Finances is something that I never want to be consumed with because I know how it can completely control people----and thus they become slaves of what they want.

I can live happily with very little. Having abundance is something I thank God for every day---because He is a God of more than enough. I don't have to go on this trip--but I feel like it would be a good opportunity--and I know that God takes delight in me and that which I take delight in.

I just want to make sure I'm being a good steward of that which he has given me. Just because He has provided for me, doesn't mean that I have permission to go live frivolously. I want to live intentionally.

I want this trip to Mammoth to have purpose. I want this trip to be an investment into relationships. I want to find a way to bless the people I encounter on my trip just as God has blessed me. I want to sew what I've reaped----sounds backwards a bit---but if I've reaped juicy yummy fruit from many people that came before me---so I want to plant the seeds of that fruit so others can take pleasure in delicious fruit as well.

It's a process that I'm learning about--but I don't ever want to feel entitled to that which I've been given in the past. It is a gift---and I am forever thankful for my inheritance---I'm not talking specifically about finances here although it plays it role---but my inheritance of the life I've been given in general: the community established for me, the breakthrough of my ancestors, the culture of honor establish, ect---many of these things others laid the foundations for, and I got to live in the building they worked hard and sacrificed to build. I don't want to take it for granted---I want to steward the building and make it successful and purposeful. To bless people with it, and to help it prosper even more. Okay, so this is an odd metaphor, but I just dislike how many of the people in my generation, including me, take so much for granted because everything has been handed to us on a silver platter. It time we start stewarding that which we've been given.

So, going off on my tangent, I just want to make sure that me going on a trip isn't being frivolous and irresponsible. I honestly don't even know what is going to happen on this trip, but I feel the grace to go. So it's an adventure where I can be intentional in investing in others. I am excited to see how God uses me this week! Here I come Mammy!